The killing perplixity

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I've been wondering many days and days
I told you goodbye but my heart still sticking in your haze
I tried to remove you from my life
But in my head I've always wanted to be your wife
I said I'll refuse you, but I don't think I'll get even a chance to be with you
You are so far ... but for me you are so close
I think of you in every moment passes in my life
And my mind says just erase him and don't try to dive
In stupid dreams that never come alive
Nothing is true, I'm so confused, and it's very complicated
My friends told me: you've never loved, you just like to play
But I'm here suffering, no-one can feel my pain, so don't only say
You listened to what they have said, and I'm here feeling like I'm dead
You chose your way, but I always wanted you to stay
You were good to me but sometimes bad
But unfortunately I was always bad as they said
I suffered, I cried, I hit my heart
But that couldn't change even a part
I'm so sorry if I hurt you
But you didn't hurt me; you killed a person that couldn't get over you
I wish you could forgive me and I forgive you
Then we delete those limits between me and you
Unluckily I think that my fate is not to be with you
But being with someone who's better than you