in a rainy night | Chapter One

[AbuHossam]

the rain falled lightly but continuous, giving a sense of calmness in the forest, they were all gathered in the shed to stay dry and warm by the fire in the middle, some of them looked angry, others sad, but all they looked troubled,she was a leader and above all a mother, she couldn't just sit and watch them drift away especially after what they have witnessed today.

Agatha spoke

“I hear that you know so little about the time you father spent here”

the young man on the left answered:

“how can we know, he rarely speaks of it.”

Agatha:

“I see, that’s his choice then, I have to respect it, so how about I tell you my story instead, we are a family after all.”

Their silence ment they agreed, so she started her story.

I was born to a wealthy nobleman, he served as commander for the king in charge of the third district, I was the third and the only daughter among four childrens, bore to him by my mother, she was the only one who was nice to me, beside the servant of course, most of my memories of her are her cleaning me and caring for my wounds, with her eyes full of tears but she never cried, she was always hurt herself, but never on her face, my father was a cruel man, she was a property to him not a spouse just as I was a property not a daughter, although my father was the cruelest, I never suffered at his hands, I was discipline and obedian, beside, my older siblings took care of hurting me at any chance they got, I never managed to stop them, they were bigger and stronger, my mother protected me when I was with her, but i couldn't stay with her all the time, they always managed to found me when I was alone, they hurted me , tortured me, I was nothing more than a toy to them a toy to practice their cruelty on, yet I never complained to my father, because as young as I was I knew that he wouldn't help,because what I was suffering at my sibling's hands, mother was suffering worse at father's hands.

I couldn't be older than six when I crossed path with my father and he saw my tooth broken, and my face bruised, he kneeled down to inspect my face,

I was shaking of fear, he never was this close to me before,he stood back up, ordered the servant to bring my brothers to his chamber and me to follow him, when they arrived, he addressed them furiously:

“ Which one of you did this to her, you know what, I don’t care, I don’t care what you do with her as long as her face and virginity stays intact, that’s what's valuable in a woman, if it diminishes I will skin both of you for it, do you understand me?”

they looked as afraid of him as i was, they answered

“Yes father we understand”

before ordering us to leave he looked at me and said:

“wouldn’t it be easier for you if you stopped resisting too much.”

That was his advice to me, and I did stop resisting, but it didn’t become any easier, with time I became numb to pain, only then I knew why mother looked dead in her eyes; she passed away two after giving birth to my youngest brother, it was around that time my siblings realized they can have more fun with me without diminishing my value; after the first time i couldn't sit straight for two weeks, not like that stopped them from raping me again, I lost count of how many times they raped me after that, but I still remember that it got more frequent as I slowly developed as a woman, all my attempts to stop them Failed, just like my attempts to take my own life.

I felt a relief when the servants told me that my father has given me away for marriage to a new commander at the eleven district, my siblings took charge of escorting me to him, they still enjoyed me as much as they could in the way, I remember my oldest telling me that he will misses me, but to me it made no difference I just lied down on my stomach thinking, I am finally out of this hell after fourteen long years.

how naif I was.