A treatment of my soul (A weak person’s lesson):
An inner conversation between my soul and my mind. It’s little bit complicated to understand but I hope that you read it once or twice to get it well . try to read it with your feelings .
There are some things, when I think of them, my tears drop like rivers because I can see how much I’m weak in this large world…sometimes I have the ambition but I find no supporter, no means to help me.
Often I call my feeling a jealousy because I can’t be like the other people who can be strong by having the good life and the environmental support… it is destiny …that’s true. I’m a huge believer that my prize is hiding somewhere…however, I need to see a piece of hope in order to continue. The life is getting harder and being a lost loser is the hardest thing. I’ve got the faith in Allah but my sinful spirit wonders why it can’t find the right path. I’m a human too, I make mistakes, I fall in traps then I recollect myself again.
Here and in this place , I have no chance to release my soul and to live my dreams…these dreams will fade away soon and they will be buried, I’ll never realize them, they will be just a silly memory from a history of a weak person.
I work hard and I always try to do my best… I’m certain that Allah will reward me one day…yes I know …but society doesn’t forgive. People around me won’t stop mocking over my dreams which flies in the highest skies. Will I consider myself unlucky or a damned person who works hard in vain?!
For the instance, life is regarded as a torture for my soul, my mind is getting emptier and my hopes for a brighter future are drowning. The smile on my face is becoming mournful day after day. However, an inner voice inside me suggests that I need to go on and keep my head up facing the struggles.
In the life of a weak person, there is a contradiction of being a loser who is a hero that fights to overcome all the barriers, unfortunately without hope and without any concrete results.
Back to our origin, we should know that we are here for a reason. We must be great believers to realize that. If we are weak in our current life, there will be something greater waiting for us in heaven… So we should not link our hope to a temporal luxurious life… but we should keep our faith in Allah first to win at the end.