B4 u wish 2 die n end ur life just think of all the people who hate their lives, millions of people could B living a life so much worse than urs but they r being patient cuz 4 moments of sadness u'll have moments of happiness .. look at me 4 example, my life truly sucks! sometimes I even wonder if I had a life in the first place, but the truth is I don't really care if my life sucked or not n i'm not sad or blue, i'm perfecty fine cuz i know that life goes on no matter what n when u count on Allah everything will B okay .. just pray n ask Allah 2 B merciful 2 u n give u what u want as long as it's not forbidden n if there's something u should know about life it's that it goes on so B patient n don't ever lose faith cuz Allah is with u n u should also know that wishing death is forbidden so don't ever do that.. i really hope that u'll get better